Assalamualaikum. I'm going to update this entry very fast. Like cheetah. Oh crap, I shouldn't talk something which is not important regarding the tittle. Ohkay, 'full moon', yes, tonight. Like now? If you read this, go and see it by yourself.
There's something I wanna share to you. It is not a mitos. It just my story. How come a full moon be a part of my life. Its kinda weird actually. Yes, I do love nature. Ocean and rainbow were the most nature from Allah that can totally make me calm. Subhanallah.
About this full moon. There's story. And yes I am totally going to tell you from the beginning and all this moment was happen during the full moon between us. Us? Continue reading.
1. It happen last year. The moment when he told me that he like me. Yes, like. Not love. I just thought that okay. "Why don't we keep being friend and trying to get know each other first? Let just follow the flow. If we are falling in love, just go the next step. Which is, moment of accepting the bad side and improve more on the good side.". And we did it.
2. Then I just got to continue my study. Well, some good things become bad things. When both of us have no time for each others. Yet I am saying to myself, "If it is what Allah's plan for our relationship, just go with it. Life must go on.". Even I still remembered the moment he looked at me when I'm leaving. Honestly, its kinda touched when he still willing to see me for the last time at that moment. *almost tearing*
3. We keep on being loyal. Yes, long distance relationship (LDR) always make me worried. Either it is going to be like people want or not, it just depends on how loyal and how much do you trust your partner. Alhamdulillah, everytime we argue on those stupid things, which is my level of jealousy keep increasing by day, he always there. Still standing right beside me. Thank you for that miamour.
4. When it come to our first syawal. One thing for sure, full moon. He is the last person I met before leaving again. He still be there for me although I have no time to talk him. Even text. Raya. No time for phones (not really). I just sent him a mms. More than enough I guess.
5. Next when already finish my study during that semester, I just thought that maybe we can spend our time. At least, till my study leave ended. And things turn 360°. Well, again. Just keep saying to myself, "Things happen for a reason."
6. New Year? Didn't celebrate with him. Melacca and his workplace? Quite far. We are not in good condition. But he did sent a nee year wish text. Still kept it. *smiling*
7. The moment when he said that thing will always be the same. "I love you. And I admit that there's no one would accept my bad side like you did. I might have no time with you like before, but I will make sure that one you will be mine for entire life". Ok now you tell me how?
8. My birthday. Oh that was totally a crap! My last exam paper for last semester. And a week before that, we were argue and I don't know what was the topic is. Yet, both were wrong. HAHA! And he is being so annoyed. Thank you for that. So that I will make sure that I will maintaining my hope towards you.
9. Tonight. Just now. More than a week we didn't talk to him like totally share what kind of problem we had. Admit, my bad. Haish, my level of jealousy just at the same level. Too bad for him for having me as his girl. Tried a couple of days to coax him, it turns nothing. OK! Little bit guilty because he keep saying that, "Don't be too jealous. Don't think on the negative side. Don't make our relationship end with nothing". Yet keep doing the same mistake. Yeay! *applause*
10. The moment when he said, "I never trust any girl like I trust you now. Don't let me down like my past did. Please take a good care of our relationship. I hate you girlfriend". Eherm! Yes, he keep saying that at the end of our coversation because I said to him once he said he love me. When he asked me why, my answer will, "Keep hating me because when you turn out your love to hate, you will love me more than now."
Dear F, thank you so much for being here with me no matter what I did and said towards you. My love to you will be the same. In Sha Allah. It is all Allah fate. When his fate that I'm yours, no matter how hard the obstacles is, I'm always yours. May everything runs smoothly and ease our day.
xoxo, L
